Why Can't I Remember My Childhood?

Episode 7: Why Can’t I Remember My Childhood? Repressed Memories, Trauma & the Mind’s Way of Protecting You
In this deeply revealing episode of The Trauma Queen, Jessica Ella unpacks one of the most haunting questions that trauma survivors ask: “Why can’t I remember my childhood?” If you’ve ever wondered why large parts of your early life feel blurry, missing, or completely blocked out—this is a powerful exploration you won’t want to miss.

Jessica dives into the science and soul of memory, explaining how the brain stores and protects us from trauma, especially when that trauma comes from abuse or emotional wounds inflicted during our most formative years. You’ll learn the difference between repressed and suppressed memories, how trauma affects memory recall, and why some memories stay buried until your nervous system feels safe enough to let them surface.

Through real stories, both personal and professional, Jess reveals how betrayal trauma—when those meant to protect you cause harm—can fracture your sense of identity and leave behind lingering anxiety, depression, and unexplainable feelings. She explores how these unhealed traumas often show up at the “edges” of memory as sensations, triggers, or emotional flashbacks.

This episode is a beacon for anyone who’s ever said, “I just feel like something happened, but I don’t know what.” With compassion and clarity, Jess offers therapy-informed insights and practical tools to help you build self-trust, create internal safety, and begin processing the hidden memories your body still remembers—even if your mind doesn’t.

This is not just an episode—it’s a healing initiation for anyone walking the path of remembering, reclaiming, and healingtheir past.

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