#38: A Message to My Father: Speaking the Truth About Abuse, Fear & Survival

This is the hardest episode I’ve ever recorded. It’s raw, unfiltered, and deeply personal.

In today’s solo episode, I speak directly to the man who abused me—my father. I’ve lived in fear of what he might do if I ever fully spoke out. But I’ve also lived with the torment of silence. This is me reclaiming my voice.

I share the complex grief, the confusion of loving someone who hurt me, the lingering terror that still exists today, and the strength it takes to live through trauma and still choose healing. This is for survivors. This is for those who never got to say what needed to be said. This is for the girl I used to be.

This episode is about:

• Facing childhood sexual abuse and speaking out

• Complex trauma, dissociation, and memory

• The truth behind why I didn’t go to court—and why I still live in fear

• Breaking the cycle of generational trauma

• What healing justice means to me

📣 Please be advised: this episode contains graphic content related to sexual trauma, abuse, and PTSD. Listener discretion is advised.

🩷 If you’ve experienced abuse and are looking for healing, know that you're not alone. You are not broken. And it’s not too late to feel free.