#37: I Gave Birth… and Left the Hospital Empty-Handed": How Peta Turned Unimaginable Grief Into Her Calling

EPISODE 37 – "You Don't Leave With Nothing"

The stillbirth, the silence, and the soul-level strength of my cousin Peta.

This week’s episode is tender, brave, and unforgettable.

I sat down with my cousin Peta, who shares the heartbreaking story of losing her son Cruz at 36 weeks pregnant—and the soul-cracking grief, healing, and spiritual rebirth that followed.

We talk about the unspeakable:

⚠️ What it’s like to give birth to a child you won’t take home

⚠️ The way trauma imprints in the body (and how breathwork cracked her open years later)

⚠️ The haunting guilt, the people-pleasing, and the lonely parts of grief no one talks about

💡But also: how she found herself again.

💡How she turned grief into purpose.

💡And how she now helps others heal their own grief through therapy, truth-telling and love.

This episode isn’t just about stillbirth. It’s about how trauma shapes us. It’s about the pain we carry in silence. And it’s about the choice to heal anyway.

You’ll cry. You’ll nod. You’ll feel seen.

And you’ll walk away knowing: grief can grow something beautiful if you let it.